A question of wrong decisions based on an education which was focused on marrying a rich man? My mother saw the potential of my father when she met him but he wasn't there already. In fact his success and wealth grew exponentially seven years after their divorce. I was 12 when I saw him on …
Family Background: Divorce
My parents split up when I was five years old This was the initial "before and after" situation. Many more followed not because of divorce because of moving to different towns. Everything changed from one day to the other: home, school, friends, neighbourhood, possibilities. Worst has been changing school. Being the new one, the intruder. …
Family Background: Father
My father was born and grew up in "Pommern", a part of Germany before WWII, now it is Poland. His father went missing during the battles in Russia and he missed him the most. Nobody knows whether he was killed or died in prison. He was the oldest of three siblings. He himself was drawn …
Family Background: Mother
Is it true, that I never loved my mother? What did I really feel for and about her? When and why did it change? The relation between her and me has to do with who I became. It is not for blaming anybody. I learned repression for a reason. The time has come to look …
Where Is Your Attention?
Just found a video from Eckhart Tolle which made me smile. So, it is time to talk about my aversion to phones and mobiles. They not only tend to ring at the wrong time, why do I have to answer a call on the spot as many people expect? https://youtu.be/pPey7m4jNto Yes, there are emergency calls …
Computers, Internet and a Distracted Me
With gratitude I will say goodbye to the internet as a tool for suppression and distraction. With gratitude? What is good about suppression? There can be situations in life which can be hard to bear from day to day. A few years back I was facing homelessness. A complicated wrist fracture which did not heal …
I Always Wanted to Be the Boss
Taking a deep breath to write this article. A little voice nagging inside me: "You can't tell this! People might think that you are megalomaniac!" Okay, so think that I'm megalomaniac but we can also take a look at the facts. When I was at school my class mates always wanted me to be their …
Mediocrity in Leadership Positions
Yesterday wasn't my day. What is happening to me at the workplace is happening to many, many more people. My colleague is fed up to his nose and will soon leave, like the guy who was on his position before. This guy simply left without notice. I will not go into details about them or …
Music – The Tune and the Lyrics
I always loved, loved, loved music, but not for the lyrics, I often even don't know them. In a way they are not relevant. Music in my life is for mood, beat me up, rock me or mellow and calm me. Melody, dynamic and rhythm are "the thing". It goes so far that a song …
The Forrest and the Trees
At this point this article is not about ecology though there would be much to say about. It is about "Vor lauter Wald die Bäume nicht sehen" means something like seeing the forrest but not the trees or too much in the picture to see all the details. I don't want to write, I need …
The Wonder Called Me 