In a densely overgrown forest I spot a hermit. His outworn green coat, his frayed hat and his long grey beard tell me that in a way he doesn't belong to this world and that he does not want to be seen or watched. So, I am as quiet and motionless as he is to …
Call Me a Dreamer
I can't avoid news. I was not actively checking news. People talk about what is going on and I'm immediately catapulted into a bad mood. To avoid this, I would like to invite my readers to dream and share their ideas on "If you could change how your country is run, what would you do?" …
Sink or Swim!
My former article is the result of a headline talking about racism. I did not read the article because I knew it will make me feel angry, sad and helpless at the same time. As a human you can usually decide to fight or flee to defend yourself. What if either option is not available …
Is Depression an Illness?
My spontaneous answer to this question is "no". Not for most people. It's a symptom. Other so called illnesses or disorders are also too common to hold individuals responsible and nothing else. It serves two interests: Society and politics don't need to careEspecially in the United States it benefits the pharmaceutical industrial complex. It creates …
Skip It!
Two days no writing in my blog ... I don't want to continue to write about family. What for? Diving into politics over the last two days told me that this is my way to escape going into "down" or heavy moods. And this is okay but I can do better, focusing on the idea …
Too Much for Her
A question of wrong decisions based on an education which was focused on marrying a rich man? My mother saw the potential of my father when she met him but he wasn't there already. In fact his success and wealth grew exponentially seven years after their divorce. I was 12 when I saw him on …
Family Background: Divorce
My parents split up when I was five years old This was the initial "before and after" situation. Many more followed not because of divorce because of moving to different towns. Everything changed from one day to the other: home, school, friends, neighbourhood, possibilities. Worst has been changing school. Being the new one, the intruder. …
Family Background: Father
My father was born and grew up in "Pommern", a part of Germany before WWII, now it is Poland. His father went missing during the battles in Russia and he missed him the most. Nobody knows whether he was killed or died in prison. He was the oldest of three siblings. He himself was drawn …
Family Background: Mother
Is it true, that I never loved my mother? What did I really feel for and about her? When and why did it change? The relation between her and me has to do with who I became. It is not for blaming anybody. I learned repression for a reason. The time has come to look …
Where Is Your Attention?
Just found a video from Eckhart Tolle which made me smile. So, it is time to talk about my aversion to phones and mobiles. They not only tend to ring at the wrong time, why do I have to answer a call on the spot as many people expect? https://youtu.be/pPey7m4jNto Yes, there are emergency calls …
The Wonder Called Me 