By now I could have signed a contract with a new employer but a zero-hour contract. I felt tempted but at the end if there is one thing I never want to deal with again: to become dependent on the slave holder department of the government, the Department for Work and Pensions (DWP). There hopefully …
Change Is in the Air?
I hope, hope, hope so! From the beginning. The night after my last article I had another dream related to my workplace. A parent and her dog, a British bulldog, were standing outside at the gate waiting for their children. Though I saw the dog alive something told me that he died which made me …
The Blame
I had a dream about my workplace which so far only reflects the current real situation. I see the car of my boss arriving at school, waiting for the gate to open and I continue working. I scare because she walked in behind me saying "It was open". Meaning my fault. She continued to say …
Meditation – Colours and the Tunnel
What I always feel during meditation are tingling hands and feet. Today there was more. I did my music meditation and I saw violet and in this violet a warm yellow circle like the sun dripping in from top, disappearing towards the bottom like sunset and dripping again, this continued several times and I thought …
Simultaneously
It was not everything I did over the days when I did not write here. Meditation I like two ways to meditate. One I call awareness meditation. With open eyes and intention to be aware of all my senses without focusing. Smelling is either the weakest of my senses or I need to do my …
Feelings Inside the Shock and Consequences
Simultaneously I felt betrayed, disappointed, angry, sad, helpless, hopeless. And hate was the long-lasting reaction, the very first reaction was running, not knowing what else to do, I ran up the stairs of all floors and along the floors until I was exhausted. Of all feelings hopelessness was not the loudest but the one with …
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Being a Human is Part of My Soul
Time and reality are illusions. I'm not matter, I'm energy, everything is energy, even stones. Different is the frequency of everything. Everything is connected. Being human is a chapter to learn. What happens in my life are challenges ... This Blog Not writing in my blog does not mean that I'm not writing. The last …
Be Yourself … Of Course!
Who am I? Understand myself or others? I give up. I know myself in a way which does not tell anybody anything about myself. I am like the tide, coming and going, flooding and ebbing, sometimes quietly, sometimes wild. I am like day and night and the twilight. I'm like winter, spring, summer and autumn. …
The Hermit
In a densely overgrown forest I spot a hermit. His outworn green coat, his frayed hat and his long grey beard tell me that in a way he doesn't belong to this world and that he does not want to be seen or watched. So, I am as quiet and motionless as he is to …
Skip It!
Two days no writing in my blog ... I don't want to continue to write about family. What for? Diving into politics over the last two days told me that this is my way to escape going into "down" or heavy moods. And this is okay but I can do better, focusing on the idea …
The Wonder Called Me 