It feels like being outmaneuvred but it also feels like it needs to be like this. Spirit needs time or spirit is telling me to go slowly and this happens for a reason. I’m starting a new job in a completely new environment. I’m focussed on this new beginning to take place and to get familiar with new conditions and expectations.
Another reason for this kind of stand still and wait is knowing that this new job is meant to come to an end. It is not my dream job, it is the bread and butter opportunity for the last few years until retirement. There is also the feeling, that this job is not completely meaningless. I will learn something new, something never experienced. Up to now I was surrounded by young people from nursery age to teenage years. And in a few weeks I will be surrounded by the elderly, the vulnerable in various ways (physically weak, disabled, mental health issues).
And just while I’m writing I received the thought “This is meant to be!”, a piece of a puzzle for a bigger picture.
It is also like asking me “Writing for children? … Wait for a while!” Something is holding me back. It could be seen as procrastination but it feels like that I’m not ready to take this direction.
The Wonder Called Me 