There is a positive aspect within the last three weeks of increased trouble at my workplace. The knowing that everything is energy, that what we call reality is an illusion, that being human is a part of my soul and not the other way around (soul is part of being human) caused a big shift in my awareness and self esteem.
This knowing was constantly in the background though the troubles absorbed my energy. I had problems to relax and meditate though I at least tried to. Writing dropped.
In private circumstances I cut out toxic people. I simply don’t want to deal with them, they are energy suckers, uninvited invaders of my soul. I don’t even think that I can fix or change anybody. Their toxicity is their business not mine. At the workplace I also avoid toxic colleagues but how to avoid a toxic boss? I really struggled and there it was: the drain of energy and joy. The room I’m in now looks as if robbers turned everything upside down to find something valuable. I will work on it later today.
And something else and more important happened … the doubts about myself disappeared. I know that I worked hard, even did unpaid overtime, I volunteered and I was there on emergency calls. A reliable, hard working, once enthusiastic and supportive employee turned to only reliable and hard working in the last two weeks.
If this would have happened let’s say 2 month ago, I would for a part also blamed myself. Yes, it is true that I can’t do everything in the short time they expect me to do. From the beginning I told them. It did not take away the thought, that the former employees might really have been quicker, that in a way I fail. Not anymore. I have the evidence that work overload took place and that this was and is a setup for failure on their behalf for everyone in my position or role.
I wish them luck to find somebody who can come up to her expectations.
I was not alone, friends supported me, listened to my concerns, offered their advice and ideas. My heartfelt “Thank you!” goes out to them. And spirit was there, showing up in dreams and visions and thoughts during meditations and the swirling dolphins who just now peek over my shoulder to see what I am writing.
Two interviews within two days, yes the divine intervened, showed me these opportunities. Thank you!
My Track
Time to connect with spirit, to meditate without falling asleep because I’m drained. I want and wish for divine guidance for the rest of this part of my life as a human being. I am compassionate, sensitive and I know that I can be a good energy within the universe. Show me the way, show me what you planned for me, show me where my talents, skills, abilities serve you best. I will follow.
The Wonder Called Me 