Change Is in the Air?

I hope, hope, hope so! From the beginning.

The night after my last article I had another dream related to my workplace. A parent and her dog, a British bulldog, were standing outside at the gate waiting for their children. Though I saw the dog alive something told me that he died which made me a little sad because this dog was so kind and funny.

I felt that this dog was a symbol of myself, something died being still alive and outside of my workplace. Yes, it is sad if things don’t work out as intended.

The Union called me and warned me about starting the grievance process with my employer. What I knew already: they can make me redundant without any reason. I first intended to do it anyway because I feel hurt, treated unfairly. But then I thought it might be less troubling to find a new job. As much as I hate to write applications, knowing that I will be sorted out by many for my age, it is not a very motivating activity. But staying where I am now is worse.

Yesterday I studied vacancies. If they sound interesting I always check the website of the employing company. I like the way how they offer services to their customers and so I started to write an email but then changed my mind to call them. The result was and is exciting. I have an interview tomorrow morning! I pray and hope that this will bring the change I need.

This night I saw a shiny red new VW Käfer parked in front of the office of the company where I will have my interview tomorrow. Is this now a wishful dream or a good sign? Please let it be a good sign.

I wonder why “VW Käfer”, it was the car my mother bought after my parents split. This car moved with us from Munich, to Cologne, to Frankfurt and back to Cologne, the only difference: it was a white car.

I really need to get out of my current workplace, it became a distraction to my personal life, finding it more difficult to meditate and follow my spiritual and creative interests. Like being down-pushed, restricted … I need to breathe!