Simultaneously

It was not everything I did over the days when I did not write here.

Meditation

I like two ways to meditate. One I call awareness meditation. With open eyes and intention to be aware of all my senses without focusing. Smelling is either the weakest of my senses or I need to do my exercise at different locations. I like it because I can do it almost everywhere without looking as if I fell asleep. Traffic jam anyone? Meditate! Waiting somewhere? Meditate!

The other one is with music, instrumental music. First I love music, second music touches me in different ways, third it is a good timer for longer meditations. When the music stops I can open my eyes and finish meditation.

Talking

While I was reading I felt the wish to talk to my mother. She is dead. I regret that we did not find a way to talk to each other, to understand each other. I told her that I see many things differently than I did not so long ago. That I hurt her sometimes with the intent to hurt her and sometimes not.

Reading

One and half a book.

• Reality Unveiled: The Hidden Keys of Existence That Will Transform Your Life from Ziad Masri
• The Unbound Soul: Applied Spirituality from Richard L. Haight

The interesting thing is, that I could not have read this books earlier. I would have called them nonsense without reading them. What I believed so far, there is something bigger than me but this have been the sea, the weather, the universe out there or natural phenomenons like earthquakes. It had to be some kind of matter which I could see at least.

Everything is energy and only a small, small part is energy which we can see, hear, smell, taste, feel.

Funny as well: I always wondered how humans could have been able to build the Pyramids of Giza. I always thought that there might be other civilisations out there but what the mind could not grasp had been laid aside. There is more than mind, there is spirit.

Religion

Yes, I agree as Ziad Masri pointed out. Religions are metaphors, often misused and misinterpreted. It all makes sense. I will talk about heaven and hell how I understand it now later. Work is calling.