I’m old enough to know that some fears started when I was young, returning in special situations like now. There are more but these three somehow block me right now.
- Not knowing what I want
- Not being good enough
- Competition and competitive environments
Competition
In short competition is about who or what is better. I can agree to competition about “What is better?” and competition in games or sports with friends where everyone who participates does so voluntarily and for fun. Competition is destructive for humans as soon as it becomes a precondition in basic needs like earning money for a living but also in research and science. I am convinced that humans are born to cooperate. Competition as a precondition supports psychopathic personalities like narcissists. I guess I will come back to this topic.
Of course I also fear competition because of the other fear:
Not being good enough
I assume to have certain abilities or strengths but I might only think so. What I regard as having shown these abilities might have less to do with me and more with lucky circumstances. In short: self-doubt is my permanent companion.
Not knowing what I want
On trying to describe this point I enter a blurry field, I even meet contradictions, so I will dedicate a new and maybe more articles to this fear.
The Wonder Called Me 